Hi, :) I've had ever been missed so much with the one that I love that is someone who has already dead. But, I don't want to mention who she is. I was been a close friend to her. I was so desperate when I knew that she was dead. I can't barely believe she has gone for forever. I don't even have a chance to share my love story to her. I don't even have chance to tell her my progress even I don't have any chance to say good bye to her. I was just like a fool not going to tell everything to her before her time. It's been a really hard time for every night I just cannot forget her laugh, her smiling teeth, her charm, her cleverness, and everything.
Telling you about this my dear sweet readers makes me feel like there is a hurting small stone on my throat, it is just like recalling memory. I was someday really feeling missing her so much. It was the time when I just laid on my bed and suddenly remembering her. I cried a lot, I just blamed on my self why I just can't let her go. It was the hardest days after her gone. I just prayed to God that I believe in for her.Then, I fell asleep.
I don't know if the psychology would say that this could be only our dream. But, It was between the hour 3.am t0 4 a.m, I was dreaming meeting her. In my dream, I was walking down to street after having lunch with friends and I suddenly saw a woman walking before me then she turned around. She was her, I was seeing her looking more beautiful but thinner. She was beautiful but I knew that we are in different world. I just then put my foot one step back. I was bit afraid but she was smiling at me. She was just gorgeous. Then, I woke up at it was 4.16 am.
I was feeling unsecure and sad. I just don;t know what happened to me. Was it because I missed her much? I don't know I just prayed for her. Some people say it was just because I was missing her so much and for some It was a real her spirit that was sent by God through dream to seek pray for living man. I don't know but i was so real for me. She was different she was thinner last time I saw in my dream but more beautiful than she lived . For some belief say that the dream in between prime time to dawn time should be real. I am happy to have a chance to meet a eral her only in a dream. I know she is up there in better place. I believe that :). Thanks God you let me see her again though only on my dream. Allahumma firlaha warhamha waafiha wa'fuanha. Allahumma latahrimna ajraha wala taftinna ba'da ha wagfirlana walaha
